I know that I am not alone. but in my mind sometimes I still am.
I have someone who loves me and wants to be with me. should that not be enough to wipe this lonely feeling from within me?
I don’t mind having low maintenance friends who you don’t really speak to a lot but at the same time when you see each other nothing has changed. but it makes me feel maybe I’m just not important.life is so busy sometimes that I know people get lost in the haze. I wish maybe I wasn’t so easy to forget about.
maybe I just need attention. not that I would do anything for it because I’ve been branded annoying too many times.
I have people at college who seem like they are my friends. but when my last exam is over with I’ll probably never hear from them again.
I know I have people who I can speak to but it never really fills the void.
I guess I feel alone because I feel like everyone in someway is temporary. everyone gets bored of me. how can I make people stay? how can I make you want to be a part of my life?
there are two people who I can think of in the past few years who have put up with me nearly every single day. I don’t want to fuck up.
I guess one of my biggest fears is to be truly alone. right now I feel alone but I know I have people. maybe at some point I’ll just have myself, and then I will most likely go truly insane.